265

Yesterday I only ate breakfast and lunch, 1155 calories.  But I didn't exercise.  I barely moved! (playing The Sims.)  So today I'm at 265.  7.5 weeks to lose 15 pounds.

I seem to be past the hunger phase.  This probably means I'll lose my hair.

Can't wait to feel lighter on my ailing feet!  And cute clothes, cute clothes.  Time for the next 5.

The scale was a bit hard to pin down this morning.  Let's call it 265.5.

Sometimes when I work, meals are catered.  This can be hard for me to figure out how to deal with.  For a long time when I was on my meal plan, I packed my own meals no matter what and ignored the catering.  Then I got kinda broke and started taking advantage of every opportunity for free anything, including free food.  But often it can be hard to know how much I'm putting on my plate until it's there, and I would also find it very hard not to grab a cookie or something if offered.  Now yesterday I had thrown together a packed lunch based on a meal plan selection - a turkey sandwich and an apple.  Pretty basic.  But there was a catered lunch and so I took advantage.  This lunch wasn't buffet-style- there were packaged lunches that included a meat sandwich, a pack of potato chips, and a cookie.  All of which I ate.  I think that's 3 days in a row I've allowed my lips to touch sweets.  That is my downfall.  The beginning of the end.  So I have to be strong, and try to hang on, or else I'll slip!  ( <--- reference!)  After coming home, I ate my packed lunch for dinner and hopefully everything turned out okay, since it's hard to determine calorie-counts for just any old random meal that pops your way.

I did get a little exercise yesterday pushing some heavy stuff at work, but probably not enough to count as a workout after all.  I have the next 3 days off.  I have so much to do, but exercising is one of those things.

266.....

Meh.  I do wish I didn't still weigh 266 on the second morning after the party as I'm trying to get to 20 pounds lost in 2 months.  I was a good girl yesterday, except that I did a volunteer stint, and they put bowls of candy in front of us, and I had 1 peanut m&m and 11 Skittles.  Not terrible in and of itself, it's just that it's allowing myself a little bit that eventually leads to allowing myself a lot when it comes to those easy carbs.  Anyway, it's a journey.  Still hope to make goal.  Today I'm working somewhere from 8 to 8.  I don't really know what's up with the food situation - whether it's catered or we break for meals.  Either way I've packed a sandwich and an apple, so that should possibly help me make it all the way through the day.

Off to work!

266! Gained a pound after the party

So, as it turned out, I slept all day yesterday after staying awake until noon trying to fix a glitch in The Sims 2 (and succeeding!)  So when I arrived at the party I was quite hungry, in a pale, tummy-shrunk kind of way.  There was lots of food - veggies and hummus and spinach-artichoke dips and apples and creamcheese-sugar dip and chocolate covered raisins and chocolate-drizzled fruit and fresh salad and chicken-corn chowder which was actually more brothy than chowdery and baking-soda biscuits and peanut butter cookies.  I found myself incapable of overindulging - considering that was all I ate yesterday, I feel pretty darn good about my control and thought it possible I might even  have been well within my calories for the day, but I haven't done the math and I did have some dips and sweets..  So the fact that I weigh a pound more today this morning is really not so astonishing considering how hard I've been hitting it all week previously, and then eating largely healthy "wild-card food" at a party last night.  But I wouldn't have been surprised to have stayed the same or lost, either.

5 pounds down (?)

Well, I've been a very very naughty girl about bedtimes lately.  I force myself to stay awake to do this much more with my laptop.  I recently ventured back into my Sims world for the first time in nearly a year (when a glitch threatened to prevent me from adopting any more babies ever, including two I specifically wanted to adopt.)  So last night I stayed up and actually beat the glitch, but it took me until noon today to do it.......

So I haven't eaten breakfast or lunch as I head off to this dinner party, which sort of frees me up a little bit.  But I should still be mindful!

And I just stood on the scale and it seemed to read 265.  I've lost that first 5 pounds and that is probably necessary to make the jump to being able to reach my goal of 20 in 2 months.

One of my motivators is remembering how it felt to lose weight last time.  Now I can't wait to feel parts hollow out a bit.  God I need to take measurements!

Need to keep going!

Ok.  I made it 5 days.  Big deal.  (Actually this last day I went over - 1900 calories!  Including a glass of wine.  But I had already sort of given myself permission to go a little over calories since I'd been getting so hungry lately and I did take a 37-minute walk - 3 miles per hour - 200 calories - dreading the uphills, my legs tingling madly when it was all over, just from a little walk.  I am definitely in need of continued exercise.)  Here's where it gets complicated - Only 5 days in and already I have a party to attend.  The hostess is preparing the food.  It sounds good.  And healthy.  But I don't think I'm actually ready to veer from the program yet.  I'm going to do it anyway.  And I'm not going to be too lazy or distracted to continue meal planning and go to the grocery store and have it available at home, be ready for my day before I get caught unprepared.

I will have breakfast and lunch as usual and control myself at the party tonight.  She's making a chicken stew, a veggie plate, and dips.  Hmm.  I wonder if those dips will be fatty or not - dips seem like a good way to over-indulge without realizing it.

I know in life there will be these little occasions, and should be.  If only managing my intake and my overweight weren't an issue so I wouldn't have to worry about it.  If only it weren't on the 6th day of my weight loss effort.

But there's nothing else for it but to attempt to control myself and evaluate the damage or lack thereof tomorrow.

As for sweets, should anyone bring anything... just one serving.  I haven't had any sweets in 5 days but after  days of starving myself a little bit, 1 cookie on my tongue could trigger those drug reactions.

My goal will be to not ruin my diet at all!  That would mean ingest only about 500-700 calories at the party.  Keep that in mind, and remember your serving sizes.  There is absolutely no room for seconds in a diet.  Except in the case of sugar free jello.

No kidding, maybe I should take some sugar-free jello as a backup.

266

Day 4 - 4 pounds lost.  But that's how it goes in the beginning, right?  I sure don't want to lose my hair in 6 weeks.  I luuuuv my hair.

So, abruptly went from eating every meal at a restaurant and indulging my sweets addiction several times per day to this - weight loss mode  - large grocery bill, food preparation, packing my meals for the day, and dishes.  For 4 days.

Today I will have some exercise at last, but just by taking A Walk.  Looks like a beautiful day out there.

I don't have much to say I guess.  For the past two days I have dealt with pangs of extreme hunger.  I am considering upping my calories to 1800 until weight loss stalls, or incorporating cheat days.  I'm half thinking of going to a restaurant today - either The Original Pancake House or this new vegan place down the street that is quite delicious.  But, I'm afraid if I do that already before new patterns are established, I'll be more likely to lose momentum on my efforts and go right back to my old ways.

On days when I exercise, though, I will eat additional calories - at least for now.

I guess breakfast and a walk are waiting for me.  Yay me! for losing 4 pounds, only 16 more by Dec 7.  How exciting to think how much better-looking I'll look, cuter clothes I'll be able to wear by then!  Maybe life will even be easier on my body and my legs and feet by then!  That is all definitely going to motivate me not to fall back on my goals.

Oh - my calorie count for these first 4 days -

day 1 - 1683
day 2 - 1387
day 3 - 1675
day 4 - 1584