5 pounds down in one day?

I think I'm still getting used to the old scale on the new tile floor?  Today I weighed 260.  Meaning that today I only have 10 pounds to lose to reach goal by New Year's.  Totally doable.  Heck, Dec 7 seems pretty possible.  I could lose it and gain it back by New Year's!

First weigh-in since the move

First weigh-in since the move - 265.  I really thought it would be worse.  I was really pigging out, like worse than ever.  Menstrual issues and stress from the move and stress from my job and being separated from my normal surroundings where everything is where it's supposed to be, etc...  I still don't have everything put away - by a long shot!  Ugh.  Putting away my clothes and just opened up the box of too-small-for-me clothes that was one of the first things I packed.  And then I went to the scale to survey the damage.

If I had weighed myself two days ago it might have been worse.  But I did start to pull myself together a couple days ago and yesterday I went to the grocery store and made my meals from the meal plans.  Went to the gym two days ago and stepped on the elliptical for the first time in a while - did a *very* easy first workout back.  Did 6 hours of light exercise at work yesterday - lifting, bending, carrying...  heart rate was up, cheeks flushed.

So today I'm at 265.  I don't guess I'll be making my Dec 7 goal after all.  I could aim for 250 by New Year's Day.  That's a pretty volatile time for a weight-loss goal!  But I don't party as hard as I used to!  :-)  Then, just looking ahead, if I budgeted for 2 pounds per week until 220, and 1 pound per week after that...

I'd get to 220 on April 16.
And I'd get to 200 on September 3.  That's a long journey.
Maybe I could get to 199 before I turn 40 on September 5.

Actually I'd rather see 199 much earlier than that, but more than that I'd rather see 220 and never see 250 again!

So... current weight loss goal is 250 by New Year's Day and my current exercise goal is to get to the gym 3-5 days per week as work allows.  That's a pretty crummy exercise goal - it needs tweaking.  But it'll do for the moment.

Whoops!

Oh.  Gosh.  I'm so off.  I moved.  Or I am moving.  My food's still at the other place.  So's the scale.  I'm so preoccupied with dealing with the move and transition, I have upped my restaurant eating, consumption of crappy sweet snacks, and alcohol.  There is still so much to move and I just can't deal with where to put it.  I guess I could just move all the boxes of too-small-for-me clothes and maybe cookware to the storage unit I'm paying for.  Anyway, I really have to get cracking on my lighting design and get back to the lower calorie eating soon.  I may even have killed my chances of reaching my goal, but that's not important.  What's important now is getting moved and getting a good lighting design executed by the weekend.

258.5?

More scale antics this morning.  At first it was reading 260 again, and I whined that I liked it better when there was weight loss every day.  But I kept standing on the scale over and over for more certainty and it started reading as low as 257.  After careful consideration, I have finally decided 258.5 makes the most sense for today.  Let's not see 260 again... ever, how about it?  :-)

Stayed within range yesterday.

You know, at sparkpeople.com, when you weigh in you're also supposed to rate your sleep quality, energy level, self-esteem, and stress level.  That never seems to change no matter what my weight.  Excellent sleep quality, moderately low energy level, moderate self-esteem, and moderately low stress level.  Although I guess I might be a little more stressed now because of the move tomorrow, and the lighting design next week.  Yikes!

holding

So, it appears I found my appetite.  At least, eating feels more normal and pleasant than it did, and it's harder to resist treats.  Could be due to an increase in natural activity.  Moving heavy boxes of books and stuff Wednesday, and yesterday was a long and fairly hard day of work that included pulling, lifting, stretching, climbing... and left me feeling quite sore and undone.

Also yesterday, a tray of free food was placed in the crew area.  I had a bit of cherry danish and later, instead of dinner, had half a large cinnamon raisin bagel smeared with plain shmear.  Later when I came home, I went to bed without eating.

All told I was around my 1600 calorie goal mark.

No weight loss yet.  Not even sure I'm still under 260.  Could definitely be a muscles thing.  I will wait until I'm sure I see that I'm definitely back in the 250s.  Looking forward to that.

In the meantime, I've definitely had the feeling that this is the beginning of another long journey and struggle.  Meh.  Can't let it rule my life.  There has to be more to life.  I figured that "food makes me queasy" phase was just a phase - have to find the happy medium and stay there.

259.5

I used yesterday as a "Day Off" which was not supposed to be permission to pig out wildly but just permission to eat things I wouldn't usually consider on the diet.  I guess I *just* did that on my trip to Asheville.  It was in celebration of losing 10 pounds and also in the hopes of mitigating any starviness aspects.

So I have no idea how many calories I ate.  I went to eat a meal at a vegan restaurant.  I got these crab cakes my mom had last time that I swore I'd eat next time.  They were deep fried, jackfruit.  And mashed potatoes and "gravy" and grilled zucchini.  My appetite is not what it has been and the very action of putting food in my mouth is like a challenge to my stomach.  I ate about half and began to feel very outdone, mostly in and around my head.  Maybe in response to the deep-friedness.  Took the other half home and ate my leftovers about an hour later.  Later in the day, I went and got myself this gourmet snack I used to enjoy all the time, a "chocolate mousse cup."  Who knows, it might have 1000 calories in it.  It's very rich and chocolatey and it's probably the first chocolate I've had in the past couple weeks.  That was all I ate yesterday.  I came home last night and looked in the fridge and felt sicky full and drank a glass of water.  Maybe it's easier not to eat too much if you're pretty inactive.

Today I'm getting my exercise through the course of my daily activities.  I'm going to transfer more stuff over to my parents' place.  Carrying, stair-climbing, -sigh.  What a mishap this has all been.

But anyway I seem to be in the 250s now.

260 - halfway to goal

Okay, I had 1305 calories yesterday - still low for what I've declared my goal, and today I'm at 260.  That's the 10-pound mark for me and halfway to my goal of 20 pounds down by Dec 7.  So - when do my pants get loose?

Still didn't exercise.  Worked on a needlepoint I'm making for my roommate.  I want it done before I move out at the end of the week, but it's slow going.  So I did that while watching tv on my laptop for many hours yesterday.

Today, there will be exercise, no excuse!

Yesterday I bought a book - Cooking Light the Essential Dinner.  I'm going to use it to meal plan to add some spice.