January 17, 218-ish

I didn't really go through the whole process of getting a weight this morning because I really wanted to take my shower and get started on the day, so I stood on it long enough to see that I'm still above 215, around 218-ish. Grouch grouch.

I was good again yesterday without issue. Not that I frequently find myself resisiting temptation, but I have started use of the following mantra to keep myself in check "I am a dieter." I am a dieter, so I cannot have one of those pound cake bites.

That said, I'm feeling annoyed with this increase in weight (even if it's mostly menstrual) because I'm feeling impatient to get below 213. I'm going to have to get the attitude that I had when I started the diet - to stay on the diet exactly so that at least if it doesn't work I can blame ediets - only now I can rephrase it and say "At least if it doesn't work, I'll know it's the diet that's wrong." This may mean more attentiveness to portion sizes. I'm really very good right now at guesstimating portion sizes, and that is how I know that I ate more than 3/4 cup of grapes yesterday. In the past, cheating a little on the fruit hasn't seemed to make a difference but maybe things are different now.

As I previously reported, energy and enthusiasm for working out was a little on the low side last week and the only reason I got my 3 in was because of the Facebook exercise group. Monday I swam for 30 minutes, Thursday I walked outside for an hour, and Saturday I got on the treadmill for 30 minutes. I had a little more energy to burn yesterday, whether due to emotional reasons or something else, so I was actually eager to expel some energy in 2-minute jogging intervals. 6 mph seemed less than intense - I did 6.5 mph for one minute and that felt a little better. Note that I did NO yoga, weights, or elliptical last week, which are supposedly what I am supposed to be focused on. On the other hand, I'm kinda craving some new dancey workouts and absey workouts - maybe on DVD. Only problem is I'm an upstairs neighbor and there's not just a ton of floor space in the living room.

I want to thank Mae Flowers so much for the Beautiful Blogger award! It means a lot to me because it's my first! I've been watching these awards get passed around for the past 6 months, often to people who've get them over and over, and I'd come to the realization that I'd actually make it to my goal weight without getting one. I actually started blogging because I was high on weight loss success and thought that my success would inspire others - so not getting the award over and over just made me feel like I was completely wrong about that. I had no idea how large and strong the blogger community was with weight loss blogs when I started! Anyway, one of the best things about this award is that now that I've received it, I can pass it on to the bloggers *I* enjoy and the ones *I* think deserve more attention. I'm supposed to pass it on to 7, so I want to put a little thought into it to make sure I don't forget someone very important. So I will have to get to that project a little later, as my work schedule permits this week!!

Also, Mae, I will attend to the Happy 101 list of things that make me happy, but right now I must get up and get some things done. :-)