Thursday, March 18, 2010

March 18, 206

I have been doing better, I guess. I haven't COMPLETELY cut chocolate out of my life, as two days ago I went to the grocery store and got another Cadbury creme egg. But yesterday I went back on the strict adherence to the Glycemic Index Plan - Sparkpeople says I ate *just* over 1700 calories, even though ediets claims that the food should only have added up to 1500-1600 calories. In these few days of unemployment I've gone nocturnal (made myself get up today at 2:30 so I could have some daylight) and seem to have NO energy whatsoever NONE! and have not worked out. I plan to do some exercise when I finish this blog entry. I just stood on the scale and am happy to see that, after days and days of bloat up to 209-210 pounds, I'm 206 today, almost down to the 205 that I had got to before bouncing back up. It would be nice if that number could read 204 by Saturday's weigh-in so I could see some progress.

I tell you, it's not easy to be dedicated and still feel like you're getting out and living life. Part of the joy of life is indulging in food and drink - I'm not going to tell one of those "Good Feelings weight-loss lies" and try to say it's not. Last night feeling so weepy and desperately nocturnal and shut in the house, I remembered a place that people said was 24-hours - not a diner, where I would feel I had to eat, but a French bakery house where I could have calorie-free tea and sit on a couch and read my book. SUCH a wonderful discovery, even if I can't patronize their restaurant, which people say is really good, but I won't know if I don't try!! Though some after-bar crowd came in last night and got some wonderful-smelling quiches - right about then is when I decided to leave and get some other stuff done. No drinking with buddies on St Pat's, but then I've never done any drinking on St Pat's.


BEE said...

i had chinese 2 times this week
but i seriously think i would of rather a cadbury egg instead
so im jealous of u now
i can tfind them around here and its almost easter dang it

cmoursler said...

Just remember that you CAN EAT. what ever you want.
You are choosing not to.
YOu should eat how you intend to eat when you hit goal weight.
Whatever that is.
If you don't have a plan for that, maybe now would be a good time to do that.
You won't be losing weight the rest of your life. You will be maintaining it.
I hope you feel better soon.
You can do this.

Hallie said...

Yes, I can eat whatever I want, and I am choosing not to eat chocolate because it makes it problematic for me to lose weight. I am not eating how I want to at goal weight - I don't even know what goal weight is! Right now I'm just trying to get to 198. I think maintenance will be a lot like what I've been doing - eating how I like, conscientiously, until I notice that I've put on weight, then reining it in. Right now I'm in reining it in mode. I'm in eat-to-lose-weight mode now.

Jill Knapp said...

Great Blog! Keep working hard and you will get to where you want to be. I love the back ground of you blog!! :-)